Welcome to Panic Station

Its two months to my big day, a day of rejoicing and celebration. I'm panicking at this moment because both of our rooms are a complete mess and the cards are not done yet. Thanks to my super busy brother who's designing the card,i constantly have to hound him to finish. Lots of questions seem to pile up inside my head whenever i'm alone or whenever i have time to ponder. I've been hurt and betrayed a great deal by this man i'll be spending the rest of my life with. I know i have to forgive him for all the betrayal he's caused but somehow its really hard to let go of all the things he has done. There's always this fear inside of me and i really hope that i can forgive him one day. Things he said will always be remembered and never will it be forgotten. I hate it when i get flashbacks of all the mean things he has done to me.
Its strange how someone you love and devote yourself to could actually stoop so low as to submit to his inner demons and then cause your life to crash and burn. I truly am afraid of how the future will be together. Somehow the assurances i seem to need are the ones i'm not getting from him. Never have i faced the challenge of being with such a difficult person in my life. I truly am afraid. God help me.

HIgh Tea

This was all i had time for during lunch. Would this be certified as lunch? Perhaps hi-tea eh? We are constantly on the run but where are we all running to actually? Are we all actually refugees?

Biscuits anyone?

Ponder Wonder Yonder

When everyone you know around you is feeling down due to great problems faced or illnesses such as cancer, what should you do? Should you be happy in the hope that the happiness you are carrying is contagious enough to cause an epidemic? Or should you just lay low and give lots of rubs in the back? Whatever my decisions might be, I've learnt a great deal about love and compassion. The mother of my beloved is one such selfless case. She's a woman who stands by her husband in sickness and in health. Through exhaustion and hunger, she visits her husband every single day without fail. This woman works at night almost every day. She has my undying support and respect. I am amazed. That's what i call LOVE.

We all go through LOVE in different stages and different ways as well as for different reasons. Some go through LOVE in different seasons and different days. Whatever you're doing at this point in time, stop to ponder what could be done to make your relationship a happier and more meaningful one? Think, what if today was the last day you'll see LOVE?

Cherish your love ones today. If wearing a wig makes them happy, why not! (Bushuk this one's for you)